One of the first blog posts here was when I turned 30. I was very happy and upbeat with my life. And quite characteristically I thought I was awesome. (I still do).

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Everyone should think they are awesome. Not in a fake way. Live a really deep life and feel awesome. There are some very intellectual narratives which suggest life becomes boring, difficult, sluggish as one grows older. But no, no, no…. it can be awesome. That’s our benchmark.

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I also wrote a post after I turned 30 and I mentioned how I became a lot more serious abt life.

Now it’s been 5 years and recently I crossed to the second half of my 30s.

Over the years there is a marked difference that has crept into life. A specialization.

I do less and less of generic – please everyone, just for the heck of it – kind of stuff. I am a lot more particular about what I want to do, where I want to spend my time and energy.

Earlier meeting solo travellers was exciting. Now I am not really sure. It depends on what type of solo travellers they are. Not all of them make sense to me. Or I am happy for them and would help them with anything but there may not be much of common stuff to talk really. Cause I have got a certain type of travel style… and my narrative doesn’t always resonate with what a lot of other travellers write.

Even cycle touring – you’d think this is a v small community so I would connect with all of them. But I don’t. Some cycle tourers are often obsessed with kms covered, they are moving from one place to another so quickly and many other differences. I don’t think I would necessarily gel beyond the initial round of pleasantaries. Though I read meticulously, a lot of blogs on cycle touring because I want to know route details, logistics and so on. But more and more I realise that there are many differences.

I was discussing with one of my friends and she too was feeling similarly… I think as we start getting into the second half of the 30s, we have developed specific interests. And it is joyful to dedicatedly explore those specific interests more.

Trying “new” things would mean not trying more of something you already like. So it’s an exchange taking place all the time. We have a limited amount of time and this has become very clear to me with a couple of near death experiences in the last year. And so I am very specific of what I am doing nowadays and where I am spending my time and energy.

Part of this is also being driven by the spiritual focus of my life. I have earlier written about the “heart”. My mode of taking decisions and thinking has significantly changed in last couple of years. Because of this also, life takes very unique turns that relate specifically to my set of Karma. It has become very clear to me in last few years that I have to acknowledge my internal situation. That’s all that matters really. I don’t need to deal with society’s questions or other people’s opinions or anything to do with the world outside. I need to be aware of my set of karma and I am inexorably tied to it. It’s what I must look at.

So that’s how I would summarize getting over to the other side of the 30s.

How about you? What’s your life all about currently?